Next week, I turn 43… Only a few days and I will be the age my boyfriend’s mothers was when she passed away… she died so young, but so accomplished as a mom. She was 43 and Alex was 18. Her children were young adults, but I am sure she felt like she did not... Continue Reading →
A shinny new title will be needed for this blog. As you may have already read in my last post, I’ve turned a page. I had a major decision to make. It had been more than a year since my 2019 embryo transfer and I was now eligible to apply to the Banques Mixtes du... Continue Reading →
Let’s talk about it... or not. Let’s cry about it... or not. « Or not » - two simple little words, yet such a powerful decision.
Is there a fertility CAA? A place that could fix it all? Because I definitely need a membership... Contrarily to my habitual silver lining posts, this one is definitely a rant. After three years of trying, I broke last night. I am just so tired of trying to be hopeful. It's in my nature though,... Continue Reading →
It's hard to believe that I started this journey just before turning 39... Forty-one... I celebrated my birthday last month and I am now officially at the two year mark of trying this Single Mom by Choice thingie. I've discovered so much... about the female body (who knew we had more than one egg growing... Continue Reading →
Don't we all hate waiting in line or being on hold... those minutes passing by while you are trying to get something done or get in contact with someone always feel like moments of life just wasted away... even though you know that once you get to the front of the line or that person... Continue Reading →
One month... It's only 31 days of our lives tops, but boy, oh boy! It sounds and feels like it's an eternity when you are trying to get pregnant and month after month, you hear "maybe next month", "next month is the one", "by next month, all this will be behind you", "you'll be smiling next month",... Depending on your cycle, your next month comes sooner, or later, or irregularly - but what we all have in common is that we wish it were this month...
Butterflies… Tears... is it normal that I’m this nervous? Shipment has been paid, the embryos are mine, I am two days away from getting a phone call saying that they are finally in Montreal and every time I think about it, I have butterflies and tears.
How have you been doing? “GREAT”, I answer. Yet I feel that some people don’t believe me... I can understand why. If I take a step back and look at the crazy roller coaster ride that was the last year, it does boggle my mind that I got through it all. I don’t think I... Continue Reading →
I didn't get my hopes up this time around but still felt like that grade 2 - 9 cell embryo had a great chance of sticking and thriving!