It’s been quite the last few years! I’ve wanted kids for so long. I’ve been pricked and prodded both physically and emotionally through those years of trying to get pregnant and then, unraveled every layer of my life to be approved as a foster parent. Finally I am a parent and I am loving it!... Continue Reading →
Is there a feeling that comes with being a mom? Biological mom, foster mom, step-mom, adoptive mom... hell even fur-mom! Do we all FEEL the same?
Next week, I turn 43… Only a few days and I will be the age my boyfriend’s mothers was when she passed away… she died so young, but so accomplished as a mom. She was 43 and Alex was 18. Her children were young adults, but I am sure she felt like she did not... Continue Reading →
A shinny new title will be needed for this blog. As you may have already read in my last post, I’ve turned a page. I had a major decision to make. It had been more than a year since my 2019 embryo transfer and I was now eligible to apply to the Banques Mixtes du... Continue Reading →
Is there a fertility CAA? A place that could fix it all? Because I definitely need a membership... Contrarily to my habitual silver lining posts, this one is definitely a rant. After three years of trying, I broke last night. I am just so tired of trying to be hopeful. It's in my nature though,... Continue Reading →
It's hard to believe that I started this journey just before turning 39... Forty-one... I celebrated my birthday last month and I am now officially at the two year mark of trying this Single Mom by Choice thingie. I've discovered so much... about the female body (who knew we had more than one egg growing... Continue Reading →
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One month... It's only 31 days of our lives tops, but boy, oh boy! It sounds and feels like it's an eternity when you are trying to get pregnant and month after month, you hear "maybe next month", "next month is the one", "by next month, all this will be behind you", "you'll be smiling next month",... Depending on your cycle, your next month comes sooner, or later, or irregularly - but what we all have in common is that we wish it were this month...
I remember sitting in the waiting room of the Montreal Fertility Clinic and seeing this couple come out of the doctor's office with a huge smile, tears and exclamations. Pregnant! She was finally pregnant!
Oh the dreaded two week wait... My last doctor's appointment saw me, surprisingly, going forward with another round of IVF. I had the minimum seven follicles I had set myself in order to try again. Then didn’t. Then did again... just getting to decision day was a rollercoaster in itself. D-Day My last ultrasound on... Continue Reading →